Category: Daily Notes

 

I heard a youtube video last night about a woman who experienced an NDE.  The story behind her NDE was the result of a war-torn horrific bombing incident.  I was with her until she began to speak of the lessons she had to go through, how she said she learned she had agreed to this experience before coming here, how she had created it.  The beings she was speaking to wore dark robes.

AAAHHHHH, I screamed inside.  PLEASE STOP AND LISTEN TO YOURSELF!!

Contracts?  Agreements?  To suffer and experience horrors and trauma’s?

Does that sound like an agenda of Source?

Or of dark beings?

Does that sound like a message of Source who wants us to BE?

Or of dark beings seeking to control and keep our vibes low.

Yeah.  That one is easy to figure out.

We are Creator’s who Create and Experience.

That’s it!

Ascension, our rightful return in frequency to Source.

We have always been Ascended Beings.

This is not complicated.

We are being flooded with photons and gamma ray’s which I feel are the frequencies of Love and Bliss.  They are the frequencies we once experienced before the conquer and matrix grid was put in place.

These are the frequencies where we are fully restored.  We create things in an instant.  We have full reverence for one another.

We live freely.

Love = Freedom.

Freedom = Love.

Again, it is that simple.

This is where we are returning.

I am asking people to reconsider beliefs around contracts and karma and reincarnation and agreements.  I canceled all that earlier this year.

And let me tell you ~ the freedom I feel inside since doing that ~ the empowerment ~ is awesome.

Again ~ Love = Freedom.

I want ALL OF US FREE.

 

 

 

 

I experienced something today that reminded me none of us are meant to experience life alone.  No living Being.

My child came through the door early this afternoon and announced there was something “strange” she wanted us to see.  I was zombified on the couch so her dad went with her.  Upon their return they both announced there was a dead deer, female, a block from here.  Neighbors had already notified animal control, who will be coming tomorrow morning to dispose of the body.

“Not the lone female I have been seeing around our neighborhood all year,” I said, putting on my shoes and heading out to ascertain.  With child in tow, we walk to where the deer lay.

As I approached, I knew it was her.  She was not more than a year and a half.  Two at the most.

I was a bit grief stricken.  I wept.  I noticed her injuries and noticed her right ear had been severed completely.  Likely hit by a car in the middle of the night.

I thought of the horrors of life, of humanity.  The cars we drive and how they can transport someone in need and thus save a life and take one just as easily.

I centered myself again and focused on what lay before me.

We gave her a blessing and I will not lie:  I asked Source if she wished to return to her body, to make it so ~ if I could help, guide me.  I knew she had already passed though and had no need or desire to return.

It was quite a teachable moment for our girl.  And to be honest, for me as well.  We have seen dead birds and mice in our yard.  But never a deer.  A deer somehow takes on a whole new meaning, you know?  A wisdom.  Is it because of the size?  Or just a knowing?

I don’t know.

I just know this deer, this young female, who we have seen around our area all year, far too young to leave this earth, had been killed, obviously traumatically.

Standing there like some silly looking human, watching over this young deer’s body, I had the thought:  If she had had a family, siblings, deer friends, maybe this wouldn’t have happened.

The world is not always so friendly.

We need one another ~ not just to survive but to thrive.

Hence I am hoping these spaces I get into ~ of which I am in right now ~ where I just desire to be alone ~ are temporary.  Necessary for this marker on my journey.

For not only does the Human need connection, but the Soul needs connection too ~ whether that Soul be in human form or animal form.

For now, I did all I could.  After offering up a blessing, I returned home, took a towel (purple – my favorite color), walked back to the deer and gently placed it over her, making sure to especially cover her head.  It felt to me to be a gesture of respect and honor.  Who would want people walking by, staring in horror?  No one wants their last moments in this realm, in these bodies, to be looked at in such a manner.

Reverence.

For all life.

Where we have outgrown this “rugged individualism” illusion and embraced the simple truth:

We all need one another.

 

 

I cannot quite fathom this fatigue I am experiencing throughout the past several days.  Normally on sunny days like today, warm days, I find energy to go for one of my power walks.  Overall I have this continued desire and need to just SLEEP.  Naps daily lately ~ even on these beautiful sunny days.  If I don’t have a nap during the day I am crashed out on the couch after dinner.

My desire to “DO” is at an all time low.  To be around people.  Go out and about.

I did go out last night and visited with my Shaman Healer for the first time in person.  It was an amazing experience and I may write about it later.  For now I am feeling the need to keep it just to myself.  I can share though that my long-held desire to learn how to work with my own inner healer and the energy that comes from my hands seems to have been met. After being told by Reiki Practitioners that the Reiki Healer never receives energy, I was informed last night there is a method that uses a symbol for receiving and one for healing and is based on Mother Mary.  The Divine Feminine.  Not only that, the Shaman can teach me.

Very vaguely, early this morning, I was semi-awake and felt this amazing experience/feeling of bliss. I could “see” white warm light all around me. When I woke up fully a few hours later, I recalled the experience and felt the Schumann must be spiking.  Nope.  Nothing “significant” to report (3 days now).  Am I creating this on my own now?

The old system ways of paying bills and even now, cooking meals – those “rules” and “should’s” – again at an all time low.

After breakfast, I had some energy (some) and decided to organize an area of the house.  Cleaning up.  Clearing out energy.  Later on, sitting in the sun and just Being, I recalled the experience and knew – this behavior of mine is covering up the real need – the need to do internal housecleaning in my own Self.

I appreciated the insight.

And as I began to dig fatigue washed over me.  I just don’t want to do that at the moment.  I feel I am OK as I am ~ right now.  Whatever “stuff” needs to be examined and released can either be done at another “time” or be done while I am resting/sleeping – on its own.  Without effort on my part.

For I am desiring my life and my Doing’s to be effortless.

Much like knowing “must sleep now” – and my beautiful comfy couch is there, awaiting to provide me the support I need in that moment.  And much like now – the dinner on the stove is done – and my beautiful mate is there, to take care of it for me.  Providing me the support I need in this moment.

And so it is.

Much love.  Quiet.  Bliss.  Sleep.  Ease.

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Victoria

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I am going back and forth today between knowing when to stand my ground, how to go about it and when to just let go.

For awhile now my inner voice has guided “if it’s 3D stress, let it go.”

And yet I also tell myself “Ok, I am still here dealing with these system inconveniences.  How much energy do I invest in them?  Will I be able to just be released from all of their influence by creating my own timeline?”

That is my hope.  My wish.  My focus.  Until it no longer is.

Today the system 3D evil was comcast.  As I told the csr today “if I had a dollar for every time I have had to phone you and point out an error you have made, you would be paying me right now.”

Energy draining experience and yet if I wanted voice mail services, that is the choice I had to make.  45 minutes later, I had a credit and the words “voice mail” included once again in my phone service option (which was an error on their part – it was removed when it should not have been). There is more to it than I am sharing ~ they royally screwed up on more than just the removal of my voice mail services ~ and the issue is being investigated on their end.

And so it goes.  The sun has returned after blasting rains and temperatures hovering around 48.  My girl was gifted an awesome microscope.  I am awaiting releasing a serious amount of anger energy tomorrow with my healing session.

I continue to speak my truth – out loud – and wonder if I am not digging deep enough for my voice continues to be raspy far too often.  Could be my deepest desire for telepathic communication to be returned with speaking words done gently, softly, joyfully with people I choose to.

For now, I enjoy the sun and will create space to take a much needed nap.

Physical experiences:  throat scratchies, itching on my sides, fatigue and an overwhelming tiredness accompanied with the words “I want the shit over and my freedom returned NOW”.

Freedom is, after all, more than just a state of mind.  That is, however, where it begins.

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Victoria

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I had another “glitch” in the matrix occur again.  New timeline.  Whatever you want to call it.  A neighbor of ours who in timeline #1 had just one dog, then in timeline #2 had two dogs (that was last summer) and now I notice has just the one dog again which makes timeline #3?  Or has #1 returned?  Or ??????

I really want to know is this part of this process of “exiting the matrix”, ascension or is this due to CERN messing with things?  A little of both?

Curious minds (that would be me – highly curious and quite commanding) want to know.

The Schumann is spiking somewhat but not like it was in previous days.  I feel that so much these days and much prefer the large, on-going spikes. I resonate with the frequency and have concluded I am not in alignment with the frequency of the lower ends and the corresponding systems that align with them (pay to live, competition and the like).  Today I surrendered myself to the truth that I have never resonated and never will.  And that is ok.  How to “BE” and “BE WELL” in this frequency that is still ticking/kicking is the quandary. Perhaps the answer can be found in the song I heard yesterday (and in my mind today on the way home) – when the world is running down, you make the best of what’s still around.

Well aside from that, getting out with the people today helped lift my spirits.  Refocused.  I meet with my new mentor next week for some new direction and guidance.  So very ready for a new experience ~ whether while still in this realm or the next.  It is time.  I am ready.

Love to you all ~

Victoria (the occasional wearer of the “grumpy” hat)

 

done with waiting.

done with trying heal myself.

done with trying to rest.

done with trying to keep up with financial demands.

done with trying to keep up with ANY and all “demands”.

done with all that is “out there”.

i just no longer care in this moment.

so there you have it.

i.  don’t.  care.  anymore.

phil will sing it for me…

 

Around 6:50pm, pacific time, I suddenly felt extreme dizziness, only the feeling was very unusual.  I almost felt as though I was lifted up, placed back down and could not find my equilibrium.  My mate felt it at the same time.  It took him longer to recover.  I’m feeling woozy contentment.

I remember looking at my mate and even though he was right there, he seemed very far away.

Quite the trip.  Anyone else notice this tonight (10/11)?

 

…sitting here suddenly purging some ancient emotions/thoughts/energies.

Watching a video with my mate on Mars when I had a thought – a new thought.

When we see these objects with our telescopes, binoculars, cameras (the sun and planets) what we are seeing is a projection of the REAL THING – captured ~ using high tech to “copy and paste” the image in this realm – to make us “believe” we’re really on this planet called earth in this galaxy system called the milky way made up of all of these planets.

Dropping the “screen” will reveal the REAL earth and the REAL realm(s) surrounding it.  Purely organic objects.  Nothing fake…

Just a thought I had that I am putting out there.

 

I had two very powerful, wonky experiences within 30 minutes apart of each other.  And oh WOW do I have to share them with you!  I had just been telling my mate how I had read a Gregg Prescott (In5D) post on facebook yesterday and his experiences with vertigo and timeline jumps. I had on The Sound of Music for my girl and I to watch.  It was the end of the movie ~ the scene where The Captain and Ralph are in a moment of confrontation.  I have owned this particular DVD for over 2 years and have seen this movie at least 1-2x yearly since I was 6 years old.  Watching this movie as a young girl gave me the first experience of past-life recall.  I suddenly knew I had lived in or near Switzerland ~ certainly in the area where I could see The Alps.  I just knew in a moment I had lived there.  A visit with an Intuitive 25 some years later confirmed this when she said I had lived a life in Switzerland as a midwife.

So it was interesting tonight as I watched this scene, I noticed the background behind Ralph began to move and swirl.  I like the term “wonky”.  I had never seen this before so I called out my mate, returned to the scene and he witnessed it as well.  I played it for a third time and this time recorded it.  It is below.  It’s a bit harder to see given I recorded it and my hands were a little shaky but check it out.  In fact, if you OWN The Sound of Music go to this scene and see if your movie is showing this same scene.  It is indeed possible we are seeing a Mandela Effect in process.  A new timeline being formed and that particular scene is being changed.  Who knows, ya know?  I just experience these things and gather as much “proof” as I can to pass along to ya’all.

The next interesting experience came about 30 minutes later while in the shower.  Yeah, my sacred woo-woo space.  Suddenly the song “When The World is Running Down” by The Police goes through my mind – loudly.  I don’t think I have ever had that song run through my mind.  I actually like the song a lot but it is not one of those songs I “hear” in my mind.

As the song runs through my mind, I suddenly feel dizzy/woozy and I see the shower wall in front of me move back and forth ~ much like the scene in the movie I describe above.  I called for my mate and he jokingly says “it’s just the water in your eyes” to which I adamantly said “LOOK at my face.  I have no water on my face yet!”  I asked him if he was sensing anything at the time and he said “nope”.

All of this happened at around 8:25pm and 9:00pm Pacific time.

Of interest, the full title of the song by The Police is this:  “When The World Is Running Down, You Make The Best of What’s Still Around.”

Synchronicity indeed (and no “synchronicity” to me that one of The Police’s best/most popular pieces is “Synchronicity” ~ funny how these things work sometimes!  Such a trip ~ I love it!).  Things lining up to shift BIG TIME.  The Matrix is crumbling.  Has crumbled.  And now we just make the best of what’s left until we jet on outta here into the new experiences of truth and freedom.