Latest Posts

 

whew boy what a day this has turned into.

to start off with i found out someone had hacked into my debit card and tried to buy some prescription drugs so that warranted a trip to the bank where i learned they don’t handle that – so i had to call the 800 number. then i went to drop off my child at a friend’s house for a playdate but no one was home.  i received a phone call telling me of the hold-up so i took care of the bank business and returned home.  we decided with the spare time we would call our neighbor and adopted grandpa at the hospital.  we were thinking of going up for a visit late in the weekend but he said NO VISITORS – just phone calls.  so being i had notified some of his friends and a social group of his that he was in the hospital i had to get on the phone again and pass along that message.

so i head out to deliver our girl to her friend’s house.  upon walking in we are greeted by a very aggressive, barking/charging dog – thankfully it was on a leash.  it’s the grandparents dog and they are visiting for the week to help out the dad while the mama is out of town.  i requested the dog be put outside.  at first i was told it’s ok we’ll just keep him on a leash.

wtf?  are you kidding me?  first face palm moment.

my girl’s friend said the dog scares her too and he nips at her a lot.

face palm #2.  poor little girl.

so i said i was not comfortable leaving my girl there as long as that dog was in the house so the dog was placed outside.

then………..i was told the little girl had been home for the past couple of days because she got her – FLU SHOT – and had a reaction.

wtf??

so i said i could not let our girl stay there.  viral shedding.

viral shedding?  what’s that, i was asked.

so i briefly explained it – essentially saying to look it up – while expressing my concern over the child receiving the flu shot as i know the mama has stated absolutely NO to the flu vaccine.  she and i have had talks about it.  so the grandparent simply said “well she’s not here.  she’s been gone all week.”  i reiterated i felt the mother would be upset knowing this had happened.  again – she hasn’t been home all week.

so……………visit with grandparents who bring their dog who nips at the child and barks aggressively and shoot her up with a toxic cocktail.  i was seriously having one of those gobsmack moments.  one of those “i cannot believe i am experiencing this – get me OUT OF HERE” so i got our girl – apologized to her friend – telling them this had nothing to do with either of them – they could play in another 2 weeks – but we had to go.

upon returning home i had to look for the other neighbor’s cane – which had been left over at grandpa’s house plus try and find the very expensive prescription pills that were said to have been left at his house on the porch. i investigated (we have his spare keys) and realized it after entering the house to get the can – that the package was inside the house.  how it got there?  i haven’t a clue.

i’m still too “i cannot believe i had THAT experience” of early in the day.

life it seems is telling me to detach and let it ALLLLLLLLLLLLL go – all of the blocks.  the contrary energies.  if it feels and appears to be “augh!” – it isn’t mine to experience.

so even with all of that i did have a really fun manifestation this morning.  for months i have been wanting to see the moon in its odd position – on it’s “back”.  others have been seeing it and sharing/commenting about it and i felt left out.  lol  so i began saying “ok before i get out of this experience i want to see the moon on its’ back!”

so at 6:20am i wake up, head to the bathroom and am nudged to look out back (east).  i stand there letting my eyes adjust saying “ok what am i looking for” – then i see the moon and well, i will let the picture below speak.

we are close.  oh so very very close.  YRFT’s video last night claims this and given how absolutely crazy chaotic today was with happenings and just the general energy out there among the populace (which felt chaotic – and detached/absolutely zoned out – some of the bank employees seemed to be in a totally different space) – well something is definitely afoot.  some energy reads will show the intensity as well.

love,

victoria

 

PROTONS:

******

[wpedon id=”208″ align=”left”]

 

it is difficult to determine if i am experiencing these incoming energies (reads below) or if what i am feeling is an accumulation of everything culminating into one big, slow, gentle really meltdown today – that is still ongoing.  body is moving very slowly – my ability to think and form a sentence a big challenge.  i did not sleep well last night – a very restless night.  worry about our neighbor, who has surgery this morning and will undergo another surgery in 2 days.  the cause behind his current issue is cancer.  then there was a family issue that triggered me – partly due to myself/not having the love and support i need and partly due to it being a potential real disappointment to my child.  i will be saying something if it turns into said disappointment.

Love does have a way of offering support during desperate moments too. we had a friend visit today.  he popped into my mind shortly after waking up and i thought “wow i could really use one of his hugs today”.  minutes later i receive a text from him.  when he came over he gave me an amazing hug – long and meaningful.  when i commented he said he had actually been studying on HOW to hug – with purpose and meaning.  yeah he’s a quick study because i felt a much needed sense of ease.

isn’t it interesting at times how others perceive us as compared to how we perceive ourselves?  he told me – as he has before – i have one of the biggest lights he’s seen.  he sees it in my eye.  i present myself as someone who has it all together.  focused.  up.  i had to laugh as i said that i don’t feeeeeeeeeeeeeel that way within.  i may present an image but inside i am screaming.  exhausted.  unfocused – at least struggling to find focus so scattered is a better term.

program taught me well – how to present myself to the world.  we’re all programmed to present a certain image.  what’s interesting – for me that is – is i have no real desire to hide my authentic inner self now.  i long to share and connect – and i do when the chance/moment presents itself.  i feel like a lonely little puppy who has wondered and searched and now needs a safe, secure place to rest until i no longer need such an experience – then i can go off on my own, tail wagging, and share and give and help the way i like and want to.  as i said – i feel my reserves are dried up.  i need to recharge.  

so these energies……….rather a new frequency – for these eyes that is.  i just had an image of a colander being shaken – removing all of the unwanted stuff.  given that is my current experience it would make sense to me that this is what these frequencies are doing to us.  whatever is going on – it can end now.  if it’s all a movie – we’re the “actors” in it and can have that choice.  there are some movies not worth watching and playing out.

in practical matters, we had a pretty big jump in the electric bill.  it became quite cold here – far earlier than the norm – and i had to run the heat at night – so i knew it would be going up.  still – when it arrives – the mind isn’t always prepared for what the eyes are seeing.  i’m absolutely done with trying to conserve and pinch and scrimp.  i do that as much as i know how to – we all do.  so unnatural to the inner Self who wants to live and be freely, unrestricted.  i am thankful for some return of more normal weather – sunny, dry.  we were supposed to do some yard work for our neighbor this week but that obviously has been put off for the indefinite future.  i understand the reason why of course – but when you are counting on making money and that chance gets either canceled or put off – and you really needed that money – it brings up – well – a lot.  anyone wanting to help – as always – it is appreciated.  deeply.  

here are today’s kapow’s and oomph’s….

love,

victoria

******

[wpedon id=”208″ align=”left”]