Praying for safety. I have people there. I don’t understand any of this.
 LIVE – TORNADO ON THE GROUND IN ILLINOIS – PARTICULARLY DANGEROUS SITUATION…
Gov’t telling us to allow in Israel and to respect the snake.
My whatever it is is off. the. charts. Jumping out of my body at any noise. Hyper alert. Hyper sensitive. Whatever “phase” we are in now? I f’ing hate it. I don’t consent to it. Finding my own inner peace – doing what I can. I can pretend there isn’t some raging battle out there – but I feel it. And I don’t trust in outside help/rescue. Not fully. I cannot prove we are just SEEING. When we are SEEING we are being traumatized like hell. Do we trust? Or do we fight back? I have no answers today.
But today is one of those inner experiences for me where I don’t GAF about the plan or Trump or any of the hundreds if not thousands of masked actors on stage who are “well insulated” and protected while WE THE VICTIMS OF THIS CESSPOOL suffer. I’m fucking DONE with it! Just. fucking. DONE!
I mean, come ON – how fucking long does a war have to take? If it was “over before it began” – and just what the fuck does that mean anyway – WHY ALLOW THIS SUFFERING TO CONTINUE? It’s only harming more nervous systems. Creating more trauma. Actors getting protected. Food. Shelter. Immigrants come here and get the same.
But for the rest of us?
Yeah. I get it. I see.
And I DO NOT CONSENT.
When is THAT energy of mine – of ours – going to actually MANIFEST?
Hmmm?
