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Today’s Experiences and Feels

 

totally intuitive sharing here.  take it for what it is.  as allison coe always says “i make no predictions with DATES but it (the event wave) IS coming”.  so if this “feel” i and others are having is real, it is all happening at any “time”.

this morning my mate and i each had “the event” type dreams.  mine was more of a feel – so a bit more boring than my mate’s.  i just had a feel i was in that energy and i could feel my body soften and completely relax.  i felt i could levitate.  it was most palpable in my heart region.  i felt totally blissful.

my mate’s dream was pretty darn cool – a visual one.  before going to sleep he intended for a benevolent e.t. to visit him in his sleep.  he then had a dream of a beautiful male, human looking, only taller.  long hair.  chiseled features.  dressed all in white.  he is standing in front of my mate, excited, hands on my mate’s shoulder’s saying “the event’s almost here!” repeatedly.  my mate said he was VERY excited – more excited than my mate.  the experience gave my mate some MUCH NEEDED hope.

people are sharing their dreams of seeing the energy.  it’s usually purple (interesting as i have stated – the color purple has been showing up on the magnetosphere the past week).  when i woke up i began hearing “the skies were all purple there were people running everywhere”.

last night i received more clarification – more insight – on the event dream i had.  i had known i had seen new planets in the dream – but i had forgotten their positioning – they were lined up – one in back of another.  i recall seeing 3.  supposedly the planets are lining up now.

i am trying to make sense of this given i believe this has been a simulation in which we reside.  any planetary objects we see are based on the “real thing” and are projected ….  or they are in the space outside of this realm.

dimensional.  last night i also recall that in the last few weeks i have had a subtle call to observe the clouds.  at times – this is going to sound strange but here it is nonetheless – at times it is as though i can see another dimension behind the clouds.  another “world”.  the clouds look as though they have another dimension around them.  it’s the strangest thing and i don’t see it daily but it is something i began noticing.

one of the main “players” in the event dream i had too – i have seen him numerous times today.  more than i have ever seen him in one day.  if today were “it” it would be in total alignment w/the weather we are having and the weather i saw in the dream.

then there was the message from my buddy rick who said clair (soul group being we both speak with – he more than i do – as she said “i am always occupied” – lol) said a major acceleration of things is underway.

obviously things are getting closer.

today at the table i was sharing a bit of info about some car issues i have.  i have experienced 5 accidents in this body – 3 i remember.  as i spoke of this i could still feel the trauma in my body.  it is less i know, but still there and i know it will be healed.  nonetheless i felt myself slip away some so i said “ok girl power it up.”  as i did i felt the need to tune in and ask for help.  said i was open again to receiving some “help” – guidance – from benevolent divine beings – after being completely shut off to all of that for a couple of years now.  i felt the pathways to such connections were – are – purer now.  less likely of hijack.

well immediately upon doing that i heard what felt like a variety of being’s “yes we are here how may we be of service”.  i was surprised – felt a nice soft peace around me.  i asked for some more power up – and to “smooth away” the energy that was causing me to feel detached.  it worked.

one last note to share.  mate went to store.  he walks in – ac/dc is playing “thunderstruck”.  as he walks in he hears the line “FREEDOM!” to which he says out loud, loudly, “freedom!”  everyone look at him.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”cool” wrap=”i”]

woops – not one last share.  mate just had another moment.  a song came on as he walked into his man wave and he heard “it’s time!”

freedom.  it is being returned.  can you feel it?

lotso mushy love,

victoria

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Brief Energy Experience (or whatever it is) Update: 6/13/18

 

Keeping it short and simple tonight as my body needs heat and massage.  Bottoms of feet are needing some TLC and back needs stretching.  About 2 hours ago, around 7:30pm, I was at the kitchen sink.  Suddenly I felt vertigo, nauseous to the point where I felt I was going to throw up.  I NEVER EVER do that last part.  As I braced myself at the sink, the feeling continued and then I felt as though I was on carnival ride, or like trying to stand up on a rocking boat.  Incoming energy was my first thought.  Second thought was “this feels like i am being pulled out of the matrix” which was then followed by my inner skeptic that said “what?  that’s nuts!”  But it did feel as though I was being “moved”.

That is the best way I can share that.

The feeling passed and I reflected.  I purged (will spare the details).  I made an affirmation for myself about being in the flow from here on out.  That came as a solid absolute knowing from the core.  Universe knows Who I Am and what I need, want and desire. It WILL all come to me with ease at the right moments.  I am rather done in pounding on doors, seeking (in a way that feels forced) and making plans. Ooooh, no more making plans.  

I chatted with a friend next.  We both have the same feeling that this “experience” has gone on longer than it was “supposed” to.  The knowing and feeling that “this is no longer a consenting experience” – I just know this.  But of course this is “it” now so breath and accept as much as I can. The chat also included the possibility that maybe this experience I had at the sink was an attack.  I considered that.  Perhaps it was.  After the chat, I tuned in and said the Universe would show me.

Minutes later I get online and see a new post by a woman whose material on ascension I enjoy and share at times here.  This was her only post:

Incoming Wave NOW
Extremely strong in the best way!
Cancel that: it’s off the charts!!! 💙💙
💙🌀💙

She had shared it an hour previously ~ at the time I had that experience.

And here is one of the comments from one of her readers about the experience that she as well felt:  “I’m feeling like I’m wobbling from side to side in a storm”.

YES!  DITTO!

So there you go.  I said “thank you Universal Divine” and went about doing this Soul-Divine-Super-Being in this tiny-little-suit thing.

Off to soothe the self….

Much love,

Victoria

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Who I Am

 

this piece was inspired after some recent conversations….

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who am i?

i am me.

sometimes i speak loudly.

sometimes i speak softly.

sometimes what i say sounds like a “red neck”.

sometimes what i say sounds like a “leftist”.

i support our president.

i support freedom for all.

i support free sustainable energy, advanced medical tech to heal us all.  free food, clothing, water and housing for all.

i support truth.

i support sharing truth in a respectful manner.

i support being kind, understanding, gentle (the world already kicks us in the ass from birth to be tough – we know the result of that.  gentle kindness it the new cool ~ while taking no sheot of course.)

i support seeing one’s behavior in an honest light.

i support being a source of comfort for those times (it ain’t easy seeing our own stuff alone).

and i support who i am/who i am becoming ~ which means i am EXPANDING and may look a bit different from one day to the next.

now then…..those who wish to label me simply due to what i say could stand expanding their minds and hearts and see me as i am.

an expanding (growing) Being.  who holds dear her current perception ~ just as much as all others.  although not too dear for tomorrow is a new day and i may just grow another inch or two.

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Today’s Thoughts/Feels/Experiences

 

Early today I saw this question posed:  Are you feeling the true zero point?  it’s here.  The time (at that time) said the message was posted 34 minutes ago.

Interestingly enough, about 30 minutes prior to that I was in bed – awake after a much needed nap- trying to get some answers.  Something I could grab onto.  A visual.  A thought.  A plan.  An answer.  SOMETHING.  I couldn’t get or feel or see a thing.  Not one thing.  NO THING.  I felt inner distress. The stories began.  “I SHOULD be able to find SOMETHING.  I SHOULD be receiving SOME guidance/answer.”  argh!!

I felt the need to move and release and get out of me what I was feeling ~ which was the need to destroy.  Tear up.  Rip apart something.

Darkness.  My darkness.

Of note – at the same time mate was also lying in bed doing the same – and he shared how saw dark rings coming out of him.  He knew it was his darkness.  He let it go.

I got up – saw the post above on zero point – shared my experience – then I began to release.  Talk.  Cry.  All of the disappointment.  The anger.  Coming down to feeling how much of “ME” was robbed during this life experience. the abuse.  The horrors.  Trauma’s.  How difficult it is for me as I have “aged” to be around Light at times for it reminds me of how that was attacked.

And then of course…the Truth….that Light never “left”.  Never did get destroyed.  Just hidden.  Gone in hiding for fear of being Seen which in past has lead to attacks.  Even today….

But what shall I expect?  The dark to embrace the Light?

Isn’t it the other way around?

I shall leave it at that….

Much love,

Victoria

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Interesting Images in Jackson 5 “Can You Feel It” Video

 

i was having some experiences and conversations about the event at the same time.  kinda like a flood gate of info came through.  something told me to listen to “can you feel it” and to watch the video that came up. interesting words and images of a wave sweeping over us.  think mj knew?  i do.  hope wherever he is, he partakes of it in his own way.  just like prince.  bowie.  and so many geniuses who knew…

i also felt a desire to go outside and look up at the event tree.  “i see you.  i feel you.  i know you’re coming,” i said.  as i did the crows up in the tree began to squawk like crazy – so much so my mate, who had been in the garage, came inside and said “do you hear the birds??”  strange behavior too for 8:30pm at night.  !!

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Today’s Reflections on Energies and Experiences ~ 6/9/18

 

Last night as we went to sleep, I noticed the Schumanski spiking (i went to bed upon seeing that long, end to end spike).  Crawling into bed, I was quickly in a nice deep slumber when our child woke me up.  I guided her back to bed, then crawled back in.  Suddenly I was quite awake.  And hurting.  Hips, right hip in particular.  Back.  Bottoms of feet.  So I began to rub myself, which then disturbed my mate who asked what was going on.

“I hurt,” I said.

“Me too suddenly.  My right hip especially,” he said.

There you go.  The past 24 to 48 hours he and I are on this wave length where we are finishing each other’s sentences like never before and experiencing the same body symptoms, down to a “t” at times.  Recently it was a sudden sharp stabbing pain in the hips for both of us, on separate occasions, while driving the car.  A first.  I took care of that with my “dark begone” tools.

So last night….after rubbing my body, I relaxed some only to have that jolt of energy go through me, leaving me shaking all over.

Allow for it, I guided.  And also given my state of Being lately, I said “ONLY if this is for my benefit and best purpose.”  I have made it clear in recent days, hours, if I am still going through this, still here this time next year or for any years that follow, I will shut it all down.  I am not consenting to this any longer unless I see positive results from it.  At this point, I am having this experience that it just feels old and without (much) purpose.  Good to go, is our phrase around here.

So after I grounded all of this energy, I was suddenly ravishingly hungry.

Great, I thought.  3am and I am still up and needing to eat.

So I crawl out of bed, go the refrig, ask myself what I want – cheese and chocolate and some fruit.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”cool” wrap=”i”]

My staple “ascension” foods as I call them.  I remember being comforted and humored in reading those are also Michelle Walling’s go-to foods as well.

So I helped myself to a slice of cheese and my homemade chocolate (it is so easy to make – if it weren’t I wouldn’t do it – seriously within a few minutes you have chocolate – well melted that is – put it in the freezer for 2 hours and there you go – anyone wanting the recipe just let me know).  Chugged some orange sports drink (didn’t feel like cutting up an orange and I was thirsty) then headed back to bed where I fell into a deep sleep.

Mate told me this morning he as well was suddenly hungry last night at the same time, but he opted to go to sleep.

Today my bones hurt – esp. in my back.  I have returned to having this experience where it feels something wants to grow out of my mid to upper back.  I want to expand there.  The best way I can describe the sensation.

So…..the question still on my mind is what if we are still in this dimension, this experience, next year.  I need to know this.  If I am going to be in this experience for the long haul, plans must be created to move and live elsewhere as this area doesn’t cut it with me any longer and the frustration w/that grows.  I went for a long walk last night – ventured off in a new way – and still had the same experience – i am done seeing and feeling the same “out there”.

I want NEW.

I could feel the trees wanting to talk with me.  I was not interested.  One tree began to say their purpose was to offer pacification while we humans were existing in this realm.  I said thank you – but your job is done.  I am no longer ok with anything that is pacifying.

I want NEW.  NOW.

‘Tis my right.  Your right.

Deep breath……….so making plans and calling forth the new place/small community that fits me now while still in this realm.  If that is doable, so be it.  I am ready.

Here is something interesting.  I began noticing the skies look different – as in a new different – the past oh, 2, maybe 3 weeks.  A different color.  The blue is different.  Then this morning on a private social media group on The Event I belong to, I read this:  “Has anyone noticed the sky? There is white energy coming thru…!!! Therefore!! The sky is not its usual blue. It is instead, perriwinkle. Yes. It is perriwinkle.”  This person also went on to say they experienced white energy in their bedroom and around their body the past 2 mornings.

So……………

There you have it.

Much love,

Victoria

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Reflections on The Event

 

What if I told you that The Energies of the Event are already here ~ outside of the dome/net/matrix grid/bubble that has contained us.

What if I told you that some if not many of these QHHT Sessions on The Event are actually receiving downloads from the matrix (esp. those that speak “we’re not ready” or “she/he asks too many questions”, etc. etc.).

What if I told you the answers truly do come within and that going outside of ourselves likely leads us to speaking w/the program.

What if I told you there were other beings helping in breaking down the programs, the grid/net/dome/bubble.

What if I told you this growing almost “obsession” – this knowing – and wondering WHY hasn’t this event happened yet – is because it IS there and those most sensitive know this.

What if I told you this was the first lifetime that so many of us have collectively awakened to our enslavement.

What if I told you we have other beings who support freedom and are viewing this as an escape ~ much as many of us are.

The programs of karma and the rules of should and lessons still needing to be learned are being destroyed, quite rapidly.

Tune in.  Go within.  You will FEEEEL this.

Love sees one struggling, suffering, trapped, drowning, fill in the blank, and it steps up and HELPS.  It certainly doesn’t say “you aren’t ready yet” nor does it say “you need to learn more”.  All of that “stuff” is a power over play which is, again, part of if not THE MAIN matrix program.

I view a parent with a child.  The child needs assistance.  Parent, out of love and concern, for that child, steps in and provides, and quite often so that the child may be a more expanded, freer version of his/herself.

The energy of love that we call The Event is an even more expansive view of Love.  It literally will wake us up fully and remember – wow – this is who I really am.  REALLY AM.  I have fully acceptance and allowance that I have no real knowing of Who I Really Am – much less who I will really BE after the event.

I had another glimpse/feeling of this event energy of Love while I was out and about – alone.

I was thinking of what I had read earlier – lightworker/sensitive types saying wow – i cannot stop crying today.  Just as I thought “hmmm I am not feeling that” – I am overwhelmed with tears.

But not tears of just sadness but of joy.  Connection.  I stopped and said “is this MY experience?”

In a way yes – in a way – collective for those in tune.

The experienced continued and expanded to where I could look at others I did not know on the street and feel deep compassion and connection with them and a desire to see them fully free to Choose.  To Be.  To Do.

F R E E L Y.  (can I say that word any more?  yeah, i can and will…lol)

Awhile back, I made connection with a woman who, I just found out, like myself, has memories of Lemuria.  We had our first conversation about this a few nights ago.  Her words “YES I KNEW IT” (about me) when I mentioned that I too had that Lemuria connection surprised me while also confirming that little nudge I had had about her from the onset of our connection months ago.  Tears came to me as I asked if she had memories of standing around trees singing.  “YES!!!” she responded.

This morning she let me know she had a download on the event (she as well also gets her good stuff quite often in the shower ~ which is where most of the opening questions of this piece derived from).  She too feels the energy of this event is right outside the net.  She could see it – us inside a bubble – the energy outside.  Here are her a snippet of her words: “but the Earth is inside a bubble (it looked iridescent like a soap bubble) that was placed around us by beings with an advanced technology. When that bubble “pops” the wave will wash over the Earth quickly because the energy is already right here.”

Wow.  Gave me chills and tears.  I have been feeling it is “right there” for months now.  And it would not surprise me if it has been “there” for years if not decades.  I feeeeeeeeeel it has been what has enabled so many to awaken from slumber 3d land.

POP THAT BUBBLE!!!  LET US GO HOME AND BE IN THAT ENERGY SPACE WE ONCE WERE IN.

While I was receiving some info in the shower, I tuned into my Highest Grandest Self (note – i went within – so important now).  I asked “what can I DO to help bring forth the event?  Bring it in NOW.  What can I do to pop that bubble.”  I suddenly could see myself/her.  She shared rapidly.

“Call it forth.  Visualize it.  Know it.  Feel it.”  As often as I can.

I feeeeeeeeeeeel calling it forth helps weaken the energy grid surrounding this realm.  I see US doing this as sending out High Tech frequencies that destroy the disease that is the 3d matrix grid.

Does that make sense?  lol  I guess it isn’t supposed to necessarily.  This is indeed an inner feeling experience.

I also questioned how “real” our bodies are.  We know they are not the REAL human bodies given how dumbed down, shut down, altered.  A bastardized version of the real thing.  Does this mean then that once we are set free, our Consciousness jumps to a REAL body – that we have already chosen/created?

???

I don’t know….I’m just beginning to feeeeeel this one out and my thoughts are morphing into a space where I am questioning – considering – whether we take these bodies as they are with us upon THE transition.

I asked for more info and well to be honest, was so tired and felt nothing – as if the connection got “severed” (is that part of the matrix program or for our own well being/ability to receive that much info – if we are in a computer like simulation, I have to remember or at least consider it is possible to overload a system – human or otherwise).

So I will end it like this.

On the way home from being out and about, after having that nice, blissful “connection with all” moment, I pulled into one last store parking lot for some fruit (been craving and eating a lot of fruit).  I sat there, weeping, thinking “get a grip you’ve got one last human interaction” – but then thought “screw it – who cares?  just be real!”  I began to laugh at that, and was suddenly filled with this burst of energy where I felt I could jump out of my seat.

I was guided to look at the newspaper stand and this is what I saw (i only had my cell phone – which is old – and do not have the correct cable to upload photos from it so the pic you are seeing was taking OF my cell phone WITH my normal camera)…..

Much love friends~

Victoria

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A Musical Tribute ~ For The Children

 

I originally wrote this piece in 2004 or 2005.  It came to me after an image of a mother holding her dead child came to me ~ a result of war (the war in Iraq was raging).  I tried to get some publicity for it to show the side of war that MSM and others were refusing to see ~ death of the innocent.

As was and is with my music, it has just sat in isolation, until breakthrough comes or a chance to play comes my way.  I had forgotten about this song until tonight.  As I was enjoying some time alone playing freely, I suddenly began to just play this song.  It caught me off guard for even though I was in free flow, playing whatever came through me, whether a cover or one of my own, I had not given this song any tending to in years.  I was also surprised at how quickly it came back to me ~ as in instantly.  Also unusual.

As I played it, it took on new meaning, new energy.  Expansive.  I thought of the beautiful precious children who have been trafficked, raped, used for the sickest of “purposes” – if you can even use that word.  Given I recently spoke about this subject and how I could just not spend much energy going down that rabbit hole, certainly not able to stay “down there” for long, I thought the least I could do was what, honor? them with this song.

I song to say we feel your pain.  We see it.  As best we can.

We mourn.  We rage.

A song of solidarity.  A song to say “I see you”.  A song to say “you are not forgotten.  You never have been.  You never will be.”  A song to say YOU MATTER.

And a song to say we the human species will never allow this horror plagued upon our children to infiltrate our human experience again.

Here it is below ~ live, unedited.  “For The Children”.  Feel free to share.

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A Reflection on Our Differences

 

A neighborhood child was chatting with my girl outside today.  He asked me if there were girl bikes and boy bikes.  He insisted there were not whereas my girl insisted there was.

He looked surprised when I told him that yes, there were bikes for boys and bikes for girls.  He then wanted to know if there were things just for girls and things just for boys.

I said yes, in a way you can say that.  While people have the right to choose whatever “thing” they wish, there are differences overall between male and female.

I live in one of those inclusive (unless you can afford to live here and unless you support Hillary ~ then you’re not really all that welcome ~ although you will be treated with a polite smile and a very weak handshake), sanctuary city types.  We welcome all.  We don’t need to know a damn thing about you, where you came from, etc.  You get to come live here.

And we also support the right to be without a gender.  Because we are all the same.

Transhumanism.

These well meaning, good-hearted folks here have been fooled by the agenda of transhumanism.  Make us all sooooooooo similar, we become One.

One.  Gender.  One prototype.

Yikes!

I proudly claim that I love to cook.  And nurture.  And wear make-up.

I don’t much like sports unless it’s a playoff (except football – total disdain for that violence).

I also have a knack for fixing small appliances and for taking things apart (and putting them back together).

I WANT to be Unique.

I don’t want to be like everyone else.

I just want the FREEDOM to do so.

I don’t need anyone telling me I have to be someone I am not.

And I don’t need to hear anyone promoting an agenda that threatens to remove the concept of “differences” lest we offend the p.c. protocol.

I WANT a girl’s bike.  I don’t want a boys bike.

I want to LOOK female.  I don’t want to look male.  (i see that a lot here in this town ~ it’s kinda creepy)

And I don’t want people pushing to do away with things that females naturally gravitate towards….males as well.

When my girl was 2, we took her to Kmart ~ to the toy section.  At first I purposefully took her to the boy section.  Cars.  Trucks.  etc. etc.

She was totally uninterested in spite of our pointing out toys.

We come to the girl’s aisle – all pink.  Dolls.  Barbies.  Dress up kits.

She was ENTHRALLED.

Same thing for her clothes.  A variety of clothes offered since birth and by the age of 1.5, all she wanted was PINK (that went on until she was 3.5).

She loves dolls.  Barbies.  Drawing.  Dress up.  Dance.

She loves to ride her bike and roller skate.

She likes to bounce the basketball and play softball/baseball.

She is 100% FEMALE SPIRIT and we encourage her to honor that about herself.  We let her be herself.  Without pressure to be like others.

And without pressure to follow the agenda of “everything and everyone is the same” of transhumanism.

Victoria

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