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i got asked today by a few people ~ are you better today?

allergies are better, yes.  thank you.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]

but that inner feeling?

no.  it remains unchanged.

i don’t see people awakening.  what i see are those who have been on this journey becoming more outspoken.  but the masses awakening?  i’m not seeing that.  i want to.  but at this point all i see are the awakened ones talking with one another.  take my website for example.  many people in my life, if not all, know about my site.  NOT ONE visits.  not a one.  i have asked. (and have since stopped.)

i have shared numerous things lately here and there with others.  my experience is they either don’t understand or they flat out don’t care.  i have heard those words.  “i don’t care” too many times that at this point, if….when this transition out happens, if they remain here, so be it.

i understand apathy.  i have it…. for periods of time ~ and yet i bounce back up again.  and i DO care when i realize i have been absolutely mislead on something.  deeply.

it astounds me that so many don’t care.

just like it astounds me that we have countless parents in this community who have let a verbally abusive teacher teach their kids and they say NOTHING. DO nothing.  they continue to send their children to a situation they have described as a “nightmare” to me.

i don’t get THAT kind of apathy.  

i don’t get it when i tell others of the trafficking issue and what has happened under DJT (the exposure and huge increase in arrests).  the response i have received is yes it is a horrible thing but DJT is still evil in their eyes.

i don’t get it.

i was vaccinated up until my 20’s.  (woke UP)

i have had my share of fluoride until my 40’s.

i am exposed to the chemtrail crap.

gmo exposure.

and yet I WANT TO KNOW THE TRUTH.

and I CARE about things like freedom and honesty and truth and justice.

DEEPLY.

but the masses?

i don’t see it.  i just don’t.

if there needs to be a split, a division, so be it.

simply because they refuse to explore and know and see, doesn’t mean those of us who DO, need to suffer and remain in this reality those refusing to “see” are all too happy with in residing.

they have that right to remain in it.

and the rest of us have the same right to the same freedom.

NO EXCEPTIONS.

i heard today that “the event” is up to US.  enough of us calling it in.  co-creating it.  really??  haven’t WE been doing that?  if that’s Truth, if we are still awaiting for more of the sleeping ones to awaken to all of this, we are screwed.  or stuck here for who knows how long.  THIS IS NOT ACCEPTABLE TO ME.  i do not consent to that.  we do not consent to that “wait until…”

personally, it doesn’t resonate with me, how we have to have “so many” to bring about the event.  it is my strong feeeeeel that we have “enough” here to do just that.  that is what WE came here for.  it is why WE are here.

and I say BRING IT now.  if it creates another divide, again, so be it.

when i first started this blog i had days of being weary of all of “this”.

now i am having it as a near constant experience.

i am ready to do something different.

aren’t you?

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victoria

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because i don’t have much else to talk about at the moment, i thought i would pass along what it’s like to be me, most notably as a mama and how often i get distracted/sidetracked.

a brief snippet of a day in the life…

no sooner had i woke up but did we have a knock at the door.  seriously?  just the neighbor wanting to share something trivial.  i stayed in bed while my mate listened until, after about 20 minutes (!!) he was able to get him to leave.  i thought back to a time in my life many many moons ago when i would have welcomed such a visit.

today?  NO!

(as i am typing this, i have this child whining because i told her “no” to her request to go someplace that is out of her boundary.  summer has just begun and the whines of “i’m boooooored” have already taken hold, lest there is a child to play with and given i have texted every #$*%&! parent around, she is on her own to find something to do to occupy herself.)

after breakfast child and i head out to get a few things.  arriving home, i attempt to upload a few things on the site.  what would normally take a person sans child/family 20 minutes took me about an hour.

whoever made doors – i want to strangle today.  open, shut.  open, shut.  in, out.  “moooooooooooooooooooooom,” come the cries of yet another question/request.  how do women survive this mentally?

finally get lunch prepared.  stomach is growling.  “uh, oh!” i hear.  turning towards the table i see my freshly purchased kambucha.

all.  over.  the.  table.

spillage.

oh yes i wanted to do another load of laundry, i hear go through my mind.

it’s ok.  we’ll just pick it up, i say.

off to the washer i go to toss in a load.  #2 for today.  i come out and notice the kambucha had also spilled on my chair pad.

wash that off, go and toss it on the clothes line outside.

lunch is still waiting for me.  quesadilla’s with homemade guacamole. sliced peaches.  stomach is still growling.

i sit down and notice child has not eaten the quesadilla.

“want me to cut it for you?” i ask.

“yes, please” she says with a rather pathetic look.  children come hardwired with that look.  i see it a dozen times a day.  at least.

stomach still grumbling, i cut it up for her, smile and pass it back.

finally i put the tasty delight into my mouth, staring outside, the trees swaying in the breeze.  silence.  food.  what a combination!

“mom,” i hear, interrupting my silence.

“yes?” i ask.

she wants me to text her friend’s mama for a playdate.

after i eat, i say.

go back to eating and watching the scenes of nature.

“mom,” i hear, “guess what.”

guess what.  that always means a story is forthcoming.  ALWAYS.  and it is never a short one.  NEVER.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”cool” wrap=”i”]

“what,” i say.

i listen as she talks of this boy and that boy and this girl and that girl and who said what and when and how funny and then she giggles.

i smile.

return to silence.

“mom,”…..

“sweetie mama needs quiet for just a few minutes, ok?” i say.

(as i am typing i am being summoned again so BRB)…..

where was i?  oh yes – mama needing quiet.

she agrees to (interrupted again – we keep forgetting to drop off a “thank you” card so i am being requested to do this NOW.  after i finish this up, i tell her.  slam goes the thank you card.  she is not happy with my decision.)….

she agrees to (oh joy here come the whines.  she knows the rule for that – whines are ok in so long as they are done in the bedroom.  does she follow that one?  more or less, yes, well, no, not really.)

ok sooooo  SHE AGREES TO MY DESIRE FOR SILENCE.  you still with me? we are back at lunch.  (another interruption has occurred – neighbor has a visitor – the lawn mowing guy.  she has to let me know that.  thank goodness for that – the lawn is almost 2 feet high and spewing grass seed/pollen our way DAILY).

aye, where was i.

oh bother.  it doesn’t matter.  i did not get the silence i wanted because, according to my memory she began to talk after a minute or so.

and i just realized i forgot something at the store.

some may be saying “hey what about your husband?  where is he in this play-by-play narrative?”

he’s mowing the neighbor’s lawn (the neighbor on the other side of us). always doing what we can to bring the $$ stuff in.  and some things need to get taken care of.

isn’t it funny?  when the house or car needs something done, we make sure it happens.

but when we the humans need something?  we put that on the back burner for “some day when”.

like say a vacation.  i would LOVE to take my family to the coast for 2 weeks. find a nice home to rent.  the last time we did that was pre-baby.  my mate and i saved for many weeks to make that trip happen.  we couldn’t afford the $1000/week homes so we had a friend whose parents had a refurbished trailer.  $250 for the week.  we snagged it.

you know the saying.  you get what you pay for.  (i really dislike that phrase, btw.)

it was refurbished in the living room.  the rest?  no.  the bedrooms were, well, let’s just say we slept in separate beds because the beds were tiny and in the room i slept in – the window above the bed leaked.

we enjoyed ourselves as best as we could but it was not a restful vacation. that’s hard to do when the sleeping quarters are uncomfortable.

i know this piece is humorous and at times tongue-in-cheek, but there is a point.  we royally have messed up this system called “family”.  isolation. pay to live.  not nearly enough support.  tribal living is the answer.  and where if there is truly something you want, desire and/or need, you have access to it and it is NOT dependent upon your bank account.

such a way of Being/Living is one i continue to see and seek ~ call forth.

a day in the life (leaving you with the song which ironically enough i heard at the store today…)….

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victoria

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totally intuitive sharing here.  take it for what it is.  as allison coe always says “i make no predictions with DATES but it (the event wave) IS coming”.  so if this “feel” i and others are having is real, it is all happening at any “time”.

this morning my mate and i each had “the event” type dreams.  mine was more of a feel – so a bit more boring than my mate’s.  i just had a feel i was in that energy and i could feel my body soften and completely relax.  i felt i could levitate.  it was most palpable in my heart region.  i felt totally blissful.

my mate’s dream was pretty darn cool – a visual one.  before going to sleep he intended for a benevolent e.t. to visit him in his sleep.  he then had a dream of a beautiful male, human looking, only taller.  long hair.  chiseled features.  dressed all in white.  he is standing in front of my mate, excited, hands on my mate’s shoulder’s saying “the event’s almost here!” repeatedly.  my mate said he was VERY excited – more excited than my mate.  the experience gave my mate some MUCH NEEDED hope.

people are sharing their dreams of seeing the energy.  it’s usually purple (interesting as i have stated – the color purple has been showing up on the magnetosphere the past week).  when i woke up i began hearing “the skies were all purple there were people running everywhere”.

last night i received more clarification – more insight – on the event dream i had.  i had known i had seen new planets in the dream – but i had forgotten their positioning – they were lined up – one in back of another.  i recall seeing 3.  supposedly the planets are lining up now.

i am trying to make sense of this given i believe this has been a simulation in which we reside.  any planetary objects we see are based on the “real thing” and are projected ….  or they are in the space outside of this realm.

dimensional.  last night i also recall that in the last few weeks i have had a subtle call to observe the clouds.  at times – this is going to sound strange but here it is nonetheless – at times it is as though i can see another dimension behind the clouds.  another “world”.  the clouds look as though they have another dimension around them.  it’s the strangest thing and i don’t see it daily but it is something i began noticing.

one of the main “players” in the event dream i had too – i have seen him numerous times today.  more than i have ever seen him in one day.  if today were “it” it would be in total alignment w/the weather we are having and the weather i saw in the dream.

then there was the message from my buddy rick who said clair (soul group being we both speak with – he more than i do – as she said “i am always occupied” – lol) said a major acceleration of things is underway.

obviously things are getting closer.

today at the table i was sharing a bit of info about some car issues i have.  i have experienced 5 accidents in this body – 3 i remember.  as i spoke of this i could still feel the trauma in my body.  it is less i know, but still there and i know it will be healed.  nonetheless i felt myself slip away some so i said “ok girl power it up.”  as i did i felt the need to tune in and ask for help.  said i was open again to receiving some “help” – guidance – from benevolent divine beings – after being completely shut off to all of that for a couple of years now.  i felt the pathways to such connections were – are – purer now.  less likely of hijack.

well immediately upon doing that i heard what felt like a variety of being’s “yes we are here how may we be of service”.  i was surprised – felt a nice soft peace around me.  i asked for some more power up – and to “smooth away” the energy that was causing me to feel detached.  it worked.

one last note to share.  mate went to store.  he walks in – ac/dc is playing “thunderstruck”.  as he walks in he hears the line “FREEDOM!” to which he says out loud, loudly, “freedom!”  everyone look at him.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”cool” wrap=”i”]

woops – not one last share.  mate just had another moment.  a song came on as he walked into his man wave and he heard “it’s time!”

freedom.  it is being returned.  can you feel it?

lotso mushy love,

victoria

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Keeping it short and simple tonight as my body needs heat and massage.  Bottoms of feet are needing some TLC and back needs stretching.  About 2 hours ago, around 7:30pm, I was at the kitchen sink.  Suddenly I felt vertigo, nauseous to the point where I felt I was going to throw up.  I NEVER EVER do that last part.  As I braced myself at the sink, the feeling continued and then I felt as though I was on carnival ride, or like trying to stand up on a rocking boat.  Incoming energy was my first thought.  Second thought was “this feels like i am being pulled out of the matrix” which was then followed by my inner skeptic that said “what?  that’s nuts!”  But it did feel as though I was being “moved”.

That is the best way I can share that.

The feeling passed and I reflected.  I purged (will spare the details).  I made an affirmation for myself about being in the flow from here on out.  That came as a solid absolute knowing from the core.  Universe knows Who I Am and what I need, want and desire. It WILL all come to me with ease at the right moments.  I am rather done in pounding on doors, seeking (in a way that feels forced) and making plans. Ooooh, no more making plans.  

I chatted with a friend next.  We both have the same feeling that this “experience” has gone on longer than it was “supposed” to.  The knowing and feeling that “this is no longer a consenting experience” – I just know this.  But of course this is “it” now so breath and accept as much as I can. The chat also included the possibility that maybe this experience I had at the sink was an attack.  I considered that.  Perhaps it was.  After the chat, I tuned in and said the Universe would show me.

Minutes later I get online and see a new post by a woman whose material on ascension I enjoy and share at times here.  This was her only post:

Incoming Wave NOW
Extremely strong in the best way!
Cancel that: it’s off the charts!!! 💙💙
💙🌀💙

She had shared it an hour previously ~ at the time I had that experience.

And here is one of the comments from one of her readers about the experience that she as well felt:  “I’m feeling like I’m wobbling from side to side in a storm”.

YES!  DITTO!

So there you go.  I said “thank you Universal Divine” and went about doing this Soul-Divine-Super-Being in this tiny-little-suit thing.

Off to soothe the self….

Much love,

Victoria

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this piece was inspired after some recent conversations….

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who am i?

i am me.

sometimes i speak loudly.

sometimes i speak softly.

sometimes what i say sounds like a “red neck”.

sometimes what i say sounds like a “leftist”.

i support our president.

i support freedom for all.

i support free sustainable energy, advanced medical tech to heal us all.  free food, clothing, water and housing for all.

i support truth.

i support sharing truth in a respectful manner.

i support being kind, understanding, gentle (the world already kicks us in the ass from birth to be tough – we know the result of that.  gentle kindness it the new cool ~ while taking no sheot of course.)

i support seeing one’s behavior in an honest light.

i support being a source of comfort for those times (it ain’t easy seeing our own stuff alone).

and i support who i am/who i am becoming ~ which means i am EXPANDING and may look a bit different from one day to the next.

now then…..those who wish to label me simply due to what i say could stand expanding their minds and hearts and see me as i am.

an expanding (growing) Being.  who holds dear her current perception ~ just as much as all others.  although not too dear for tomorrow is a new day and i may just grow another inch or two.

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