As long time readers/friends of my work know – I do not align with unsolicited advice. I have had a practice of reminding myself to hold space and ask what the person needs or if I can do something for them to help. If not, I keep my thoughts to myself. Well, I certainly try to. I could improve on this!
At this moment, more than ever before, I feel the words below are very important. The experience here is exhausting now. And those tools, some days, simply don’t work as they once did. Letting go is a challenge at times. I employed it earlier and I felt these little energetic knives coming my way each time I said “let it go”. I can let go of my frustration at having my right to shop for food denied the way I am accustomed to because I cannot wear a mask – until it is time for me to decide “ok how am I going to get food and where”.
How does one find ongoing peace when in prison? I reflect if that ability is partly due to ones personality and energetic imprint. I want my full freedom. That is just who I am. Staying in that neutral and or all is well space for long periods just does not align with the Truth of that inner need/desire for Freedom. I am an intense, driven Energy Being who knows what she wants and don’t like to have that experience contained in ANY way.
The striking back coming at this experience now by whatever/whoever these invisible entities are is palpable. Perhaps not all feel this. Many do. For now….I hold space for myself and for all of us who are feeling the blow back going on. If any of you need anything, just ask.
The correlation between COVID-19 deaths per million of population and 65+ year olds that have received influenza vaccines is real. Dr. Allan S. Cunningham presented the challenge and here are the results.
One source for vaccine data: OECD (2020), Influenza vaccination rates (indicator) doi:10.1787/e452582-e (Accessed on 21 May 2020). This lists, by country, the % of the population aged 65+ for 2018 or the latest available year. For Covid-19 death rates by country as of 21 May 2020: www.worldometers.info/coronavirus.
% INFLUENZA VACCINATIONS IN THE ELDERLY (x) /COVID-19 DEATH RATES PER MILLION (y)
Czech Republic 20.3/28 Lithuania 13.4/22
Denmark 52.0/97 Luxembourg 37.6/174
Estonia 4.8/48 Netherlands 64.0/337
Finland 48.4/55 Norway 34.4/43
France 49.7/431 Portugal 60.8/125
Germany 34.8/99 Slovak Republic 13.0/5
Hungary 26.8/49 Slovenia 11.8/51
Ireland 57.6/319 Spain 53.7/596
Italy 52.7/535 Sweden 49.4/384
Latvia 7.7/12 United Kingdom 72.6/531
The x and y values shown above were used to determine the Correlation Coefficient (link for calculator below) between the two.
editor victoria’s comment ~ i can strongly relate with this one. a life long of trauma in this “zone” has lead to cognitive issues including brain fog and fatigue. i know this isn’t who i really am – it is who i became inside here. i would also say given the toxic environment in which we are in, this leads to other states of dis-ease in the body – especially for those who are “wired” differently.
throughout my life i have done as mentioned below – clench my jaw, suck it up and power on through. slowly it has taken a toll. i have kept my mouth quiet throughout my experience – mostly to keep myself in a home and fed (although now and then things build up and i have to release the energy.) it is grossly unfair what pay-to-live does to some of us. some flourish quite well. most struggle along. some simply suffer greatly (and often quietly).
oh the stories we will be able to tell once we are out of here….although i am still going to have a full removal of trauma – once the story has been shared.
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HSPs tend to do more mental work than others — one of the key causes of chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS).
Chronic fatigue is one way that our body expresses what we’ve been unable to. As a highly sensitive person (HSP) — someone who feels deeply and easily gets overwhelmed — I tried to push past these traits for years. I pretended to be less affected by time pressure, (emotionally) stressful situations and loud, crowded environments than I was. I simply adapted while doing my best to not expose how rattled or upset such circumstances actually made me feel.
I didn’t realize it, but pushing myself to be something I wasn’t, forced my body to speak up. Thanks to the demands I put on it, my energy levels began plummeting drastically, and I experienced different symptoms, including weight loss and brain fog.
At first, I thought it was because my digestive system was out of whack, but blood tests didn’t show anything wrong, and the changes I made to my diet seemed to help only a bit. But I couldn’t shake feeling totally wiped out, and that level of exhaustion often came with muscle aches, poor sleep, and even feeling as though I was coming down with the flu.
The Road to Chronic Fatigue
I decided to visit the doctor’s office to see what was going on, and it was unsettling. The doctor was new at the clinic — a peculiar old guy with a dry sense of humor. Initially, he didn’t show much empathy, exclaiming, “Well, there certainly isn’t much meat-juice left in you!” Despite his demeanor, though, he actually said a few spot-on things. I thought my thyroid might be overactive — the symptoms seemed to match — but he brought up another possibility: chronic fatigue.
“We won’t take any more blood tests since it’ll only repeat your feeling of not being seen,” the doctor wisely said, sharing insights gained from a lifetime of experience. “Focus on building yourself back up again.” His secretary, who afterward kindly comforted me, stated that “I looked like something the cat had dragged in.” And while I could’ve taken offense at her words, it felt more like a breath of relief. Finally, someone was taking my anguish seriously and acknowledging how sick I felt!
The Connection Between Sensitivity and Fatigue
HSPs, like introverts, tend to reflect deeply on the world around them, and do lots of ”inner labor” that remains invisible to those around them, and therefore isn’t considered valuable.
We’re constantly trying to adapt to a pace not aligned with our natural tendencies — and a value system that prizes achievements and accomplishments rather than internal developments — all of which takes a toll on us, as many HSPs can attest. Whether it is habitually tightening our muscles to keep ourselves together or clenching our jaws to ”power through” something, our bodies take the hit.
Too much and our bodies will start speaking up, as mine did. Chronic fatigue doesn’t have a known cause (though depression and overwork are associated with it) and rest won’t make it go away. But I believe that several high-stress incidents — like taking on limiting familial beliefs, or unwittingly absorbing and feeling trapped in loved ones’ crises and stresses — impacted me as a highly sensitive person, and by ignoring them or trying to respond in a way that wasn’t true to my sensitivity, I developed the condition.
Repressed anger played a role as well for me. Anger can be a scary emotion and HSPs are often softhearted empaths who struggle with expressing it constructively, if at all. Unfortunately, we tend to suppress it or turn it towards ourselves in destructive ways, all to our detriment. Instead, we could use this vital life-force energy for healthy boundary setting, especially for shielding our sensitivity and for building a sense of personal power and agency.
I have a suspicion that my illness is linked with forcefully pushing myself in an attempt to live up to the norms and ideals of society. On top of absorbing emotions and repressing anger, I come from a place inhabited by mostly practical-minded people with a traditional work ethic. Beyond a certain age, they frown upon behavior that seems lazy (because it’s not as productive as they think it should be), so being a deep-processing, quietly-observing, and emotionally-responsive person isn’t always understood or appreciated, let alone celebrated.
Recovering from Fatigue as a Highly Sensitive Person
My recovery hasn’t been easy. I still feel physically sick if I go into negative thought loops. And I don’t seem to be able to cope with pressure, from outside or inside. Recovery almost resembles taking care of an infant.
I suppose I must accept it and learn how to become a responsible, loving caretaker of my physical, mental, and emotional needs by giving my body sufficient rest, plenty and proper nourishment, and living as free from stress as possible. To use mere willpower to make my body do something or push myself doesn’t work. I can’t do it anymore.
I have to be in tune with my needs and make appropriate decisions, moment by moment, based on my body’s signals. If I don’t, I reap painful consequences almost immediately. My body is a strict teacher, speaking in capital letters if I don’t treat it exactly how it needs, now.
Channeling My Experience into a Creative Project
My exhaustion took a very serious toll on my body. But it had one upside: it made me put pen to paper. I felt an acute urge to express myself, to explore inner workings and themes.
Last year, I wrote a novel titled What’s the Matter with Maria? It’s a tender tale about a sensitive and introverted little girl, Maria. And although my book is fictitious, it‘s inspired by my personal experience pushing myself to adapt to the kinds of outer demands which often produce some degree of internal agony.
Thinking about the inspiration for the book takes me back to that taxing time when I first fell ill. The memory is palpable — I can’t help recalling how awful I felt both physically and emotionally. I know my little protagonist Maria’s anxious alertness well, her feeling of not being enough, falling short, and that her highly sensitive traits are wrong or inferior.
My wish for all highly sensitive people — both children and adults — is that they understand and respect the language of their finely-sensing bodies from an early age. A proper education in how best to preserve, protect, and nourish our precious energy is crucial to prevent steady energy drains and leaks. With its advanced capacity for sensing subtleties and fine distinction, let your highly sensitive body be your primary guide in life — allow it to be your personal compass.
Please don’t ignore or downplay the symptoms and sensations your body so generously provides. Even if nobody else seems to understand or see good reason for them, the warnings will turn up the volume to catch your attention. Instead, honor your innate sensitivity by being responsible, which means being responsive and making every adjustment to maintaining your health that you possibly can. After all, you are the only one who knows exactly how you feel.
By MATTHEW LEE – Associated Press – Tuesday, July 7, 2020
WASHINGTON (AP) – The Trump administration has formally notified the United Nations of its withdrawal from the World Health Organization, although the pullout won’t take effect until next year, meaning it could be rescinded under a new administration or if circumstances change.
The withdrawal notification makes good on President Donald Trump’s vow in late May to terminate U.S. participation in the WHO, which he has harshly criticized for its response to the coronavirus pandemic and accused of bowing to Chinese influence.
The move was immediately assailed by health officials and critics of the administration, including numerous Democrats who said it would cost the U.S. influence in the global arena.
Headlines like “Houston facing ‘apocalyptic’ July 4” sparked fear and panic across most of America’s media over the weekend as talk of max’d out ICUs and soaring case-numbers dominated every pixel (with very few able to see any link to this resurgence in cases and the riots and protests that began to take place a few weeks ago).
As per usual in this highly politicized world, another leading voice has emerged to clarify that this heightened state of alarm was all for naught, since Houston actually has the situation in its hospitals well in hand.
Houston Methodist CEO Dr. Marc Boom told CNBC on Monday that the demographics of the outbreak have “flipped” and that the mostly-younger people arriving in the state’s hospitals often don’t require ICU beds, even though many do get very sick.
“Even though we have about 200 more patients in house, about double, we only have about three or four more people in the ICU, so that’s encouraging.”
Turns out we had one of these things in a cupboard. There is a lot of talk among the normies here who insist all wear a mask – how doing so is our civic duty to protect others from our own germs.
Well, according to my N95 box of masks, here’s what the manufacturer has to say:
“to help wearer reduce exposures to airborne germs. This is not intended for any other use.” … “…it will not eliminate the risk of disease or illness.”
It also gives the warning for those who have health issues with the lungs and heart.
The recommendation by “experts” is to wash your homemade mask once a week. Really? Hmmm….I would think daily washing would be best. We don’t wash underwear once a week. Or socks. Those masks are also supposed to be cotton – nothing synthetic. Cotton is a better barrier from what I have read.
I also saw an article on dealing with the rashes people are now getting.
Makes me wonder how many other health issues will continue to crop up among those who wear them regularly. And those employees who are mandated to – I hope to see more unite and refuse. We do have some stores around here who request it of their workers – unless the worker has an issue against wearing one – health or personal reasons. Reminds me of the vaccine issue.
Good god….Just release the tech already and end this lying nightmare!
So much competing info and double-speak, it can make your head spin. Kinda like wearing a mask for hours each day, right? I have heard several people at the store comment how their masks “make them dizzy” or they “cannot breathe well”.
That is because you are not breathing as your body is designed to.
First I want to begin by saying THANK YOU – SO much – for those of you who donated in the last 24 hours. I am deeply touched by the generosity and the support. I hold the thought that you all be richly blessed because of this.
I haven’t much of a clue what happened today out in the realm. And I am absolutely fine with that right now. I did hear that our state is one of several who has seen a jump in cv19….no surprise. One county is now voting for mandatory masking (eye roll)….
We knew a second wave was going to be pushed. I can only hope the remaining humans will see the hypocrisy of the state:
They allowed and supported (encouraged) the protests. The vast majority wore masks. And yet the virus stats spiked sharply.
The state refused to allow the people the right to have funerals for deceased loved ones – but protests were fine as was that “funeral” for George Floyd.
All of this also supports the idea that masks don’t work. They’re just a symbol saying “I am letting myself be controlled by the state”. Take them off. Free yourself people. And seeeeeeeee with new eyes.
I had some interesting “things” come to me in the shower portal today. Because of the experience I continue to intend for myself, I was guided to let go of all here. No surprise on that one. What I thought would follow that was the usual “to let it all flow” – but I was surprised when I heard/felt “to help with the pull”. So – let it all go here to help with the pull. I stopped what I was doing for a few moments and said “ah ok – yes”.
I also had a dream last night where I saw myself in a mirror. I can count on one hand the number of dreams I have had where I was looking at myself in a mirror and 2 of those I felt were me on the outside. I looked a bit different. Younger. As the memory of that dream entered my mind while still in the shower I had this “feeeeeling” that me on the outside really wants to wake up – get this done – merge back together. I also remember before I went to the mirror I took off this rather heavy, scratchy teal-colored jacket. What was underneath was a silvery gray, fluid tank top with a pretty tie at the hip. Interesting I had the clothes dream as Sister Deborah told me today she ain’t aligning with any of the clothes in her closet. We then talked about the kind of clothes we DO wish to wear and let’s just say in the New she and I (and many other women I am sure) shop in the same store. lol
She also sent this one below to me. I found it quite the synch as just last week my mate and I were saying how “we ain’t in kansas anymore”. It is something I can feeeeeel. Not able to see – yet – but the feeeeeeling is there. I also align with her feeeeeel of letting go of the Old Matrix – very much what I received in the shower this morning….. (and btw – I like that 4:44 reference….today the 2’s were back with some power)…I also find this interesting – the “13 day storm” we are in which according to her perspective would end on june 29….according to some who decode Q drops many of us feel we are in week 8 of a 10 week storm – which ends the week of the 4th of July…..our NEW and REAL and GLOBAL independence day? god i sure hope so! this ongoing “ok this is the storm and NOW it is over” has become absolutely weary….no joy in it….i am ready for real joy again….and yeah – that freedom thing.
and one last note of interest in this one – earlier today i was thinking about kindness…..that has been on my mind….how it is a super power (i read that in one of my girls books)….i have a project i want she and i to do to spread some kindness…..as i reflected on all of this i was reminded of that phrase – BE the change you wish to see in the world….and here it is again shared in this piece…..
BLUE MAGNETIC STORM
1 CAUAC- KIN 79
16 JUNE 2020 🌈🌀🌩🌪☔🌧🌀🌈
CATALYZING TRANSFORMATION🌀🌈
MANTRA
I UNIFY in order to CATALYZE
Attracting energy
I seal the matrix of self-generation
With the Magnetic tone of purpose
I AM guided by the power of MY OWN POWER DOUBLED 🌈🌀🌩🌪☔🌧🌀🌈
KIN 79 = 16 = 7 DOUBLE 16/16 and 7/7 Majik codes! 🌪🌪🌪HERE COME THE THUNDER BEINGS!!!!🌩🌩🌩
A DOUBLE 16/16 code of the TOWER struck by LIGHTNING coinciding with TRIPLE BLUE MAGNETIC STORM day!! Looks like we are off to an ELECTRIFYING 💣💥💥 start to this 13 day STORM Wavespell!!
ANOTHER very, very powerful day – TRIPLE 🌪🌪🌪STORM energy – looks like a TURBO 🌀GALE 🌬🌪🍃is on its way!
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Today we commence a new 13 day cycle. It is day ONE in the BLUE STORM WAVESPELL of purification, cleansing, transformation and evolution. Today we are focused on magnetizing and attracting tremendous energy to catalyze transformation on a personal, collective and global level. The WORLDBRIDGER enabled us to release and LET GO of the old Matrix, witnessing the DEATH of the old cycle and old Earth, we are now FREE and have created SPACE for the NEW to enter our lives and change our reality.🌈
During this next phase many souls will have the RUG pulled from under their feet! Their old foundations will crumble and they will be forced to seek new ground! Perhaps literally for some! Many RUDE AWAKENINGS will occur as humanity is forced to FACE the TRUTH that will be revealed for all to SEE.. Cognitive dissonance and denial will be matched with more persistance from Spirit for us to embrace this change and AWAKEN from the hypnotic spell that kept us in our collective slumber.
💥Get ready folks we are about to commence the TURBO SPIN CYCLE!! 🌀🌀🌀
TONE OF CREATION
MAGNETIC is tone number 1 in the SPIRITUAL realm as we initiate a new wavespell cycle. Power: Atrracts Action: Unifies Essence: Purpose. Day one of a new wavespell always starts with the Magnetic tone of purpose. In the beginning was the ONE!. From out of nothing, here ONE comes. Spinning happily – magnetising all that it requires for more excellent adventuring. Once strong in purpose, all will effortlessly come together. The Magnetic tone is all about ATTRACTION. Attracting everything that you require to fulfill your purpose and your goals. People, resources, relationships, money, support and all that you can imagine. The attraction seeks to unify all as one! Thus MAGNETIC kin have a very strong connection to SOURCE, and a gravitational pull to return there and bring all their buddies with them. The power of ONE is very strong today as it unites us all as ONE HU-MAN-ITY.
The MAGNETIC tone today will assist us in attracting all that we require to catalyze our transformation, in order to step up into our greater Divine purpose.. As this STORM will bring great social upheaval, the Wayshowers will need to be very focused and work together in steering this collective vessel to safer waters.
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💥Hold on to your RED SHOES 👠👠Dorothy!!! THE STORM🌪☔ is here and we are no longer in Kansas!
CONSCIOUS SELF & HIGHER SELF/GUIDE: BLUE STORM 🌀🌀🌪🌪CAUAC Is the change-agent. BLUE STORM is continuing the PURIFICATION and cleansing process through upheaval and purging the dross. For the masses that have not awakened they will be challenged in order to evolve. CAUAC will forcibly clear any STAGNATION and push anything in its path with tremendous force – even for the unwilling. You cannot negotiate with a Tornado! 🌪You prepare and batten down the hatches or run for the hills!!! (or is that hide in the cellar? Seriously folks the matrix has programmed humans to FEAR change and thus we drag our feet and resist at all costs (better the devil you know!). However there comes a time when SPIRIT says “Enough is enough! Now is THE TIME.” So as they say in the movies – you either go willingly or they will put bring out the handcuffs. We all need to FEARLESSLY embrace change as a grand new adventure🌈 leading us to new untold pleasures and excitement. The pioneering spirit is one we all need to embrace during this evolutionary Ascension phase we are currently traversing.
BLUE STORM is the most POWER filled and energized of the 20 tribes/solar seals in the Dreamspell, affording a great well of powerful energy to be catalyzed and transformed for renewed purpose. All this extra energy that has been freed up through letting go can now be “funnelled” in to new projects🌱 and ideas designed to afford great planetary change and transform the lives of Earth’s citizens – ONCE THEY WAKE UP!!
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SUPPORT: YELLOW SUN 🌞– AHAU EN-LIGHT-ENS us and encourages us to SHINE BRIGHTLY like the sun. So today we are attracting SOLAR energy from the SUN and our great Central Sun and magnetizing these codes through our own precious hearts. This enables us to generate all the energy and power we need to fuel our purpose with renewed passion and vigour.
The SOLAR codes are supporting this STORM in creating the IGNITION🎇of our Holy Flame 🔥to step up into our DIVINE purpose. AHAU will ILLUMINATE and reveal all the darkest of SHADOWS to be cleansed, purified and brought into the LIGHT. This is the DIVINE DECREE for our Planet as NO DARKNESS can REMAIN LURKING any longer. GAIA is evolving from being the “dumpster” planet in the Galaxy to becoming the SHINING STAR 🌟– CENTER STAGE.. As our Planetary battle is in the SPOTLIGHT and the attention of voyeurs throughout the Cosmos – our VICTORY is ASSURED. 🌠 There is nowhere to HIDE from the inevitable! GAIA ASCENDS🌎❤ and GOD WINS! END GAME!🏆
OCCULT/HIDDEN POWER: WHITE COSMIC WIND🌬🍥🍃 – IK Within the STORM 🌪you can hear the whisperings of the purifying White Wind. Is it a gentle breeze 🍃tickling your ear or a howling gale🌪 trying to get your attention? This WIND is of COSMIC proportions – so the full force of GOD’S WILL and mighty POWER is the hidden SUPERPOWER today! The DIVINE whisperings will become a LOUDSPEAKER today – yelling at you – in your dreamstate – WAKE UP, WAKE UP – and take ACTION to avoid the negative repercussions of THE STORM! It is time to catalyze this power for your e-vo-lution.
Allow yourself to be fully present and LISTEN👂 for the messages or sounds to channel through and guide you to your hearts remembrance of your Divine Mission here. Tune in to the gifts and insight to see what needs to change in your life and you will arrive at a renewed sense of your Grander purpose for this next 13 day cycle.
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CHALLENGE/GIFT: RED MOON 🌛👸 MULUC adds further purification and cleansing energy through the power of Universal Water. The GODDESS beckons us to Collectively transform to a more compassionate World where we LOVE and NURTURE each other as EQUALS – recognizing the Divinity within each person.. Embracing them as family. Our beloved brethren, all desiring to be the fullest expression of LOVE that they can be in a HU-MAN vessel.
The GODDESS will heighten your sensitivity today, increasing your intuitive knowing on what needs to CHANGE and transform in order for your life to FLOW〰〰 more smoothly and effortlessly.
✨✨ The more we can FLOW, the further we can GO! ✨✨
Pure brilliance is known to FLOW towards us with this powerful code today. CHANGE IS UPON us beloveds, so the more our vessels are purified, the more pure energy we can draw into our being to be catalyzed. Going with this flow can negate the CHAOS 🌪🌩 and disruptive energies, so we can ride the waves of harmonious and celebrated change! 🎉🎊🎈🎆
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Today’s question is “How can I generate and catalyze these transformative energies in order for my life to FLOW smoothly into the NEW REALITY?” 💙💚💛💜💗💙💚💛💜💗
So STAR seeds, as a great man once said – it is TIME to go forth and “Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” Mahatma Gandhi
Namaste’ 🙏❤🙏❤🙏
In Lak’ech a la kin
Christina White Magnetic Worldbridger – KIN 66 🌏🌈
PICTURE CREDITS: Washington Monument struck by Lightning Photographer – Kevin Ambrose – Washington Post DIVINE GRATITUDE 🙏❤🙏❤🙏
